my last post was like last year…look at how fast time flies. if i were to look back at how much i have achieved so far, all i could say was this and that. but what do ‘this and that’ actually means. but who cares right. we are still young and have the time to still do what we want. but the burning question is, would time wait for us or do we still have time. i had this conversation with my dear friend and what she say truly affect me. “none of us changed since secondary school” it makes me think, did we stay stagnant or did we change but no one notices. the simplest quirks or habits gone, the smirk you used to give me the wrinkles and laugh lines appearing on your face. the way you hugged me or the way your smile makes me smile. it seems like it never change but it actually did. maybe i am just delusional, or maybe i am just holding on the the past. ‘your not in love with me, but your just in love with being with someone like me.’ am i going to be the last one to know once again or is it a story which only i don’t know. you decide and tell me.
on a different note, attachment starts once again. it is just the first day and i already wanted it to end. the routine repeats the cycle continues..is this what it is going to be like when i finished studying? am i loosing the passion or interest that i once held or maybe i am regretting my decision once again for not appealing. but lets face the facts, not everyone can get what their dreams really are, some just get on with life and hope for the best. what i think we can do now is move forward and to catch the chance once the windows is open. you can’t just continue bulldozing through all the obstacles, you will end up being tired and may just loose your dreams. lets rest for a moment and continue paving our way when we are truly ready.
sounds depressing my thought eh..but what to do, maybe i am just missing my friends. yups i need a hug badly…a really tight one. lets wake up tomorrow and hope for another day.
*hug*
thanks….hugs tightly back~